In the good times and the bad

God,
You are beautiful. You are holy. You are righteous. You are Just. You are forgiving. You are Jealous. You are all-powerful. You are all-knowing. You are perfect in every way.

God,
Life is so messy. My heart breaks daily when I see all the pain and evil around me, in me. God there are times when I am overwhelmed with life. Sometimes it is so hard to see the beauty of Your creation when all I see is brokenness and affliction. There are times when I call out to you looking for answers and comfort, yet you seem so far away. Why? Why must there always be the poor? Why does there need to be loneliness? Why does there need to be death? Why can’t you come down right now and set everything right? Why can’t you come and hold me in your arms assuring me that you love me?

God,
I am filled with questions, but it does not take away from my love for You. Even when I feel insecure and abandoned You gently comfort and restore me. In spite of my weakness and questioning you use me to accomplish your good. Despite the evil and depression in this world, You are present and perfect. And for that reason You are the only one worthy of my praise. God I want to be a double-edged sword for you. Make me your servant. I am your vessel to do with as you wish. Help me do nothing out of my own selfish ambition, but rather let me be humble and lift others above myself. Help me to not ignore the pain and troubles of this world and at the same time be a beacon of light and peace to those around me. God make me a rock. I pray that amidst this chaotic, sinful world I would be able keep my eyes fixed on you. Let me think of things that are holy, pure, righteous, and shameless. Help me mourn for those in sorrow, care for the weak and feeble, and love the unlovable. Help me listen to the meek, and calm the afflicted. God I pray that when I look in the mirror I will not see me, but rather your servant—a reflection of you.

God,
I will praise you through the good times and the bad. You are unchanging and everlasting. You are wonderful. You are my God, my father, my beloved.

Amen.